30 Thing about My Invisible Illness You May not Know

1. The illness I live with is:   still grossly undiagnosed, but i have a list...dysthymia, borderline personality disorder, ocd, non-specific esophageal motility disorder, gastric antral vascular ecstasia
2. I was diagnosed with it in the year:   psychological, 2001-04.  physical, 2009-10
3. But I had symptoms since:   as long as i can remember
4. The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is:   realizing it's not all in my head and that i cannot do everything...sometimes you have to take a break
5.  Most people assume:   im a hypochondriac or just looking for attention...or that im exaggerating
6. The hardest part about mornings are:    getting out of bed...im usually tired and stiff
7. My favorite medical TV show is:  probably ER or Scrubs
8. A gadget I couldn’t live without is:  my cell...
9. The hardest part about nights are:  knowing that i'll have to do it all over again the next day
10. Each day I take __ pills & vitamins. (No comments, please)  varies, but i take around 15 total now
11. Regarding alternative treatments I:  have only looked into supplements...thinking about acupuncture though 
12. If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible I would choose:  i'd choose the one that hurts less i guess...i dont know...
13. Regarding working and career:  i've been missing work and i never do that...it's hard to be bubbly and happy when you hurt
14. People would be surprised to know:  that i cry sometimes
15. The hardest thing to accept about my new reality has been:  life is very fragile and it's may not play out how you always imagined it would
16. Something I never thought I could do with my illness that I did was:  n/a...doctors are just now beginning to agree that somethings wrong...soooooooooo
17. The commercials about my illness:  they have ones for depression...they are depressing lol
18. Something I really miss doing since I was diagnosed is:  i havent really changed much since i dont have a definite dx right now
19. It was really hard to have to give up:  n/a
20. A new hobby I have taken up since my diagnosis is:  blogging more since im in bed more often 
21. If I could have one day of feeling normal again I would:  go running
22. My illness has taught me:  that people get really uncomfortable around sick people
23. Want to know a secret? One thing people say that gets under my skin is:  "oh, that's why you're so skinny!!"
24. But I love it when people:  actually take the time to understand what im going through and ask questions or google
25. My favorite motto, scripture, quote that gets me through tough times is:  Things will get better.  If they don't, oh well.    :-)
26. When someone is diagnosed I’d like to tell them:  welcome to the club
27. Something that has surprised me about living with an illness is:  people in the medical field can be real jerks
28. The nicest thing someone did for me when I wasn’t feeling well was:  ask me if i needed help
29. I’m involved with Invisible Illness Week because:  we are overlooked...especially if we are young.  nobody believes us.  nobody cares.  they think it can't be THAT bad since we don't look sick, but we suffer.  and im sure that many are like me, and they just stop saying how bad they feel.  we stop going to doctors when they dont believe us.  we stop believing ourselves.  that's no way to live.  we need a voice.
30. The fact that you read this list makes me feel:  happy because somebody actually came to my blog.  lmao